4.07.2014

Lately

I feel like blogging today. With no particular topic really, I just want to share some of my thoughts as of late.

I finished another quarter school and I only have one more left to go. I'm in the middle of my research paper, implementing my "thesis" back in my first grade classroom. I teach science integrated with art on Tuesdays and Thursdays. This will be my second week and we will be gearing up to learn all about plants and their parts and even plant our own little seedling! I want students to find creative outlets in expressing their conceptual understanding. (That's pretty much my "thesis" in a few short words). 

I'm on a little break from school for a week before my last quarter begins. I have one last class and my research paper and I am done!!! With that said, I have a bad case of senioritis. I can't get myself to focus long enough to get a lot of work done on my research paper. I related where I am at this point with running a half marathon and being at mile 11. You know you're almost done and almost to the finish line, but you're not quite close enough to see the finish line, but close enough to know it's there. It's all a mental game for me now to keep pushing and keep going. I know I'm almost there and now I just have to remind myself that it's almost over, this long journey is coming to an end. 

I'm lacking motivation in life in general. I feel like I'm in a weird funk. Trying to figure out what to do next with my life now that I'm done with my credential. I want to start looking for jobs, but I'm afraid of it at the same time. I'm afraid of job interviews, of answering really deep questions about my teaching philosophy and classroom management, and being rejected! What if I don't have what it takes to be a teacher? But then I step back into my 1st grade classroom and teach a science lesson and I get so excited to do this for a living! It makes me long to have my own classroom and teach kids important lessons and make a difference in this world, even in a small way. 

I just had a conversation with someone about being idealistic about teaching and students. I really believe in students and their ability to learn and achieve great things. I want to be a teacher that taps into that potential and helps students see what they are capable of. I never want to lose that drive, that hope, that passion.

My "healthy" lifestyle was on hold during student teaching and the only thing keeping me active was training for the LB Half marathon. Once student teaching was done, I got back into strength training, but not as much as I was hoping. Like I said in my last post, I have a lot of free time. But yet I feel like I really don't. I need to take some time to reevaluate what my goals are and pray about what God wants me to do next. 

3.07.2014

A Brand New Year

Wow. It has really been a long time since I've last blogged. Anyone miss me? I didn't think so!

I'm not even going to attempt to catch up on all the things that have happened in the last few months. Let's just say, I'm done with student teaching, done with my credential, and funemployed! Yes, I said funemployed! I am not working full time and I am not going to school full time. So what am I doing with all that free time?

It seems like a blur to me. I get up, I go to Rhino to workout. I come back, eat my post workout meal, prep my lunch, eat lunch, do some homework, watch some tv, play with Ayah, or run errands. I don't have a set schedule. This has been really hard for me. I am a person that enjoys structure and routine. And as of right now, there is none of that. And I know God is teaching me something through this. To let go of what "plans" I have for myself and trust in HIS plan for me.

I am a substitute teacher now for a private school but I don't get called in all too often so I'm left with lots of time on my hands. I am in the last semester of my Master's degree and will be walking in MAY and done in JUNE! Time has really gone by so fast. I remember starting this journey in 2011, wondering when I would be student teaching or finishing up with my masters. And here I am.

I'm done with running for now. My last race was the Mission Inn half and I absolutely hated it. I have one last half in September, the Disneyland Half! And I am calling it quits. I'd rather strength train and build muscle than run!

I'm also turning 29 in a few more days. It's got me thinking about my life and where it's headed. Then I'm reminded that this is not my life and that God is ultimately the one in control of it. Not me! I can make all these plans and God can change them!

I don't know what the future looks like for me. I don't know where I'll be working in the fall, if I find a teaching job at all. My hope is to find a job and be working this fall, but I don't know where I want to work, if I want to consider moving out to LA, or if I can stay more local. I have to wait on the Lord and see where He places me.

I'll try to keep this more updated since I have SO much time on my hands!

12.16.2013

Student Teaching: Update

So I finished my first student teaching assignment back in October and began my second assignment in November. I now have a class full of 1st graders! And ooh boy, it's an adventure every day. It's been such a transition for me going from 5/6 to 1st grade! There's a huge difference in their development, learning, and maturity.

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One student gave this to me on my first day of first grade because she said I helped her spell a word.

But I'm learning to love it. And I'm learning to be more compassionate, kind, empathetic, and loving at this grade because they're still sensitive and can't handle sarcasm and jokes just yet. But they do love and forgive much more easily. They're more excited to learn and read and are more helpful at this stage. They still like you and want to please and help you! But they also need much more management. Because they're still so young and new to the whole idea of being in school all day, they tend to get the wiggles and need to move and talk all day long. But I'm slowly incorporating my own classroom management styles and it's great to see it working! The content is also much easier than 5/6th grade. I can actually teach math and grammar on the whim without having to "study" it the night before. 

I'm at week 6 of student teaching…with a 2 week Christmas Break!!! I cannot wait. Although, most of my time will be spent working on my dang TPA. 

And as tiring and exhausting as this is, I'm loving it! And I'm so glad and thankful I'm finally on this journey. No more crappy job that I absolutely hate, no more boring work-scanning papers all day long, no more sitting at a desk for 8 hours, staring at a computer. I'm so thankful I'm finally at a place where I can say I love what I do! And I'm excited to get up in the morning and tackle the day again. I don't dread going to work anymore!


12.15.2013

Run 4 Rea: Mission Inn Half

Woah, it's been a few months. But student teaching has me so busy, I'm rarely in front of my computer for long enough to sit down and write a blog post. If I am, it's to write a lesson plan or work on an assignment. So life has been busy and I'm barely staying afloat.

I know I said that Long Beach was my last half ever…but I was wrong! I did the Mission Inn half in November because my brother's company is one of the sponsors so we ran together as a family! Kuya Joem, Kuya Jino & Selle, and Troy! A family that runs together, stays together….right?

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I saw Selle!


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This was by far the most boring half I've ever run and I never want to do it ever again. That was rough and the scenery was boring. It almost felt like it was never going to end because we were going straight down the bike path till we had to turn around! And what sucked even more was that since I'm slow, all these people were already turned around and were passing by me the other way, on their way to the finish! It made it even more frustrating, wondering when I would be able to turn around. 

But hey, I did it! And I'm officially done with running for 2013. I ran 4 halves in one year. Not bad for someone that hates running with a passion! But don't worry, my running career isn't over. It's just on hold for now while I focus my energies on student teaching. I'll for sure be running the Disney half in September 2014. And then I'll retire my running shoes. (Maybeee)

10.17.2013

Run 4 Rea: Long Beach Half

This past Sunday, I completed my THIRD half marathon! Who would have ever thought? I absolutely hate running and I'm really slow. But I got myself out there and ran for 13.1 miles!

This was the third and final half for the Beach Cities Challenge and I am so glad I'm done with it. This was by far my favorite one because it was all flat and we ran along side the beach. It was a perfect day for a run too. It wasn't freezing like the OC Half and it wasn't scorching hot like the Surf City half. This one was just right. Looks like I might wanna do this one again next year and the year after that to get ANOTHER title: Beach Bum! 

I had a goal in my mind as I began running. I wanted to PR this race. And mind you, I'm a super slow runner. But my goal was to keep going and push until the very end. I was doing this for my Rea Rea because it was going to be her third birthday the day after. I sang worship songs, I prayed for my family, school, friends, and my students.

I was making really good time and even under what my goal was when I got a call from Troy saying he was at the medic tent. Well, of course, me being the best girlfriend ever, ran as fast as I could to make it to him and find out what was going on. So because I'm such a good girlfriend, I stayed with him in the tent and eventually, we walked together. We walked from mile 9 till about mile 11 when I asked him if it would be okay for me to run the rest of the way :)

There's really nothing like that feeling of crossing a finish line, knowing all the hard work you've put into training and running. I woke up early every single saturday (and by early, I mean 6 am) to run 4, 6, 8, 9 miles! Especially after waking up early everyday for student teaching. So this medal and this race meant more to me. 

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Picking up my race bib from the expo. My THIRD ONE! YESSSSSS. 

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The morning sky before the sun fully came up. 

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The best training partner ever. The best running partner ever. The best boyfriend ever.

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After running 13.1 miles. 

I crossed the finish line before Troy and got my finisher's medal AND my Beach Cities Challenge Medal!!! Troy called me as soon as he crossed the finish line and when I saw him, I started crying!! I couldn't believe I finished my THIRD half. I felt great the whole run, my knees didn't hurt, and I was making good time. I felt really accomplished! And I was crying because I never thought I'd ever get something like this. I never thought I'd be able to run a half marathon. And I had to thank Troy for all of that because he was the one that believed in me, pushed me, encouraged me, and supported me throughout the whole thing, from Surf City to OC to Long Beach. He was there! So yep, I cried like a little baby. 

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